This is the only platform that I can come and talk about myself and not feel guilty about it. It’s been a while since I’ve blogged. It’s been a while since I’ve actually put my feelings on a screen, but it feels that it’s the only place I can really express myself freely, not on video but through words.

I’ve learned a lot this past year, and the year is not even over yet. I’m only in my 30’s and yet my soul feels 70. I shouldn’t have to feel that way not at this age, however life has taught me that the older we get the harder it will become. I’ve stopped blogging for a while because of the time that I was investing into my business. I should be happy, I should be rejoicing…but I’m not.

Don’t get me wrong I’m grateful for every moment of my life so far, the good, the bad and the ugly. This year marks the 6th year anniversary of my business The CCWC Network Corp. Throughout these 6 years, I’ve created fashion shows, helped other women start their businesses, created a magazine, and even made some clients along the way. For the first time ever, I’ve received an award for OUTSTANDING LEADERSHIP by Florida’s Top Models Inc. an award that means more than the awards that I’ve received from college or my 9 to 5.  And I have received some amazing awards for academics and top sales person out of 3 states. but Why doesn’t mean the same? Because it’s an award for my own creation. It means the world to be recognized by others for the good you do in the world.

These are all great achievements so why am I still unhappy, why when I smile, my tears are right there around the corner. Only Lord knows what I am enduring. I can only pray that there is a light at the end of the tunnel. When God gives much blessings, the burden that follows will not be light at all.

I can only ask for strength to continue this journey .