I am not the woman I used to be…my strength grows at every rising of the sun…your hurtful plays will hurt me no more…3 years ago I crumbled, fell to my knees and cried blood, for you left without a word.
Not a goodbye or see you soon…not a farewell or an adieu…I’m not the woman I used to be…I am much stronger than this…see
I can’t remember why I fell in love with you…was it your charm?.. was it your wit? your sweet embrace or was it fate? yes indeed I fell in love…don’t ask me why but I just did…my brain can’t quite comprehend a puzzling situation ,you only treated me fair at your convenience. I’ve had better dates than you, been treated like a queen by others and even been romanced by undeserving men…was it to kill the pain that you have caused? was it to compensate for YOUR lack of love….I’m not the woman I used to be…I’m stronger now can’t you see?
3 weeks ago you came back…pleading for me to return to you, love is strange at time..ha.. will make you do the craziest things…”I strive to be a better man” you said…I believed you, your actions showed the difference…your calls increased, your presence often…I fell for it..and again I was the fool. Surprised was I when you described how well you knew the rules of courtship…you purposely kept them from me..the last we spoke was on Sunday…I texted and called…but couldn’t make you shake…coincidentally though…. your phone was with you for I saw you post on Facebook just 2 minutes ago…yet my call and text you shall ignore…It’s ok I’m not the woman I used to be…I’m stronger now do you see me?
You left before no surprise there…I blamed myself at first but never more, your selfish ways have no effect on me, I can’t change you and you can’t change me. I’ve loved you the best I can, you were MY man… I was your woman, your lover your friend…you’ve told me things that no one knew…or so you said..I fell for you…
I wish and wish there was a way to erase the past and erase you, you’ve hurt me Kevin you’ve hurt me bad…I don’t fit your perfect plan and that is sad, Love is a choice and I chose you, still don’t know why since day one I met you. but constantly you make me feel like I need to adjust to you …but what about me? what about what I want? what woman will put up with this, I’ve compromised so much and buried my pain, closed my eyes on so many things thinking you’ve really changed. But again I was wrong and became the victim. I’m not the woman I used to be…I’m stronger now…see?
I accepted you for who you are, all I wanted was for you to do the same…I’m not the woman I used to be and will not be led to insanity by your selfish ways and cruelty. Now I’m the one saying goodbye because I’m through suffering and crying for you. Good luck finding the next woman that will quench your “thirst”…I just hope she doesn’t kill you first. I’ll walk away, don’t say a word ,I’m stronger now haven’t you heard?
I’m not the woman I used to be…my strength grows with each rising sun, not one more tear will be shed for you, be blessed on your journey mine will be just fine without you.